It's an "official" feeling!

I am going to be pregnant forever! I don't understand this process. I've been healthy throughout my entire pregnancy, I made a birth plan and now it could be squashed in a matter of days if I do not start labor within 4 days. I will be laboring the entire time in the hospital, hooked up to an iv with pitocin running though my veins, waiting to birth my baby! Not exactly how I planned this first birth with my first child. There goes all of the natural techniques I have lined up. Perhaps I'm jumping the gun and should remain with that sliver of hope to get me through? It's hard and I'm becoming more and more discouraged because everyone texts me and calls me asking if I'm in labor or if baby is here.

I'm frustrated. I've tried so many things to get things moving. Evening primrose oil, orgasms, pineapple, walking all over, my membranes were swept, I ate prego pizza and even spicy food. I even have an appointment for acupuncture tomorrow, along with getting my membranes swept again.

Hmm..

My little one is so comfy inside and I cannot blame him really. Living inside a warm space where you're being fed, there are no loud noises and not much stress. Comfort, pure comfort.

Dear son:

I love you and I want to meet you, please help mommy accomplish this. It would be lovely if you make the decision to come out to play today or tonight. So many people are anxious to meet you and I am anxious to stare into your eyes in complete awe. I will try to be patient and allow nature to take it's course. But just know that we're running out of time and they may have to induce me here in 4 days. I love you.

Love mom...